I know that since I lost my mind and deleted my entire blog that I lost most of my readers, too. I also know that my last few posts were skeery for those of you who don't know that I am mostly full of shit, most of the time. I am gripey, but once I let my gripes out, I am like a kitten. Without the fur. And the purring. I digress...
Some of the things that I say on here are hard for people to hear...but I think it is good for us to hear about other people's struggles. Perspective is a Good Thing. I am about to go a whole new direction with my blogging. I am going to blog about my attempt at a healthier me. If reading a blog written by a Fat Person about Fat People makes you uncomfortable, well, good. We are all born into this world as itty bitty babies. You and me...we are
Also, we would all be Big, Fat Liars if we said that we blogged just for ourselves. If I were writing these things only for myself, I would definitely NOT be paying for this here blog and posting my thoughts on the internet. We all want to be part of a community, and blogging is one in which I am quite comfortable. Please stick with me as I embark on what will probably be the biggest adventure of my life.
I am kind of flying solo until Tuesday, at which time I will be undergoing a RMR (resting metabolic rate) test. From there, I will have a nutritionist who will help me adjust my eating habits (I am NOT going on a diet) to meet the needs of my body and I will have a fitness trainer who will help me compose a fitness regimen that will help me burn calories and gain strength. I have already taken the first steps, on my own. I am no longer keeping soft drinks in the house. I will still allow myself to drink soda if we go out to eat, but we don't really get to do that very often. I am now consuming between 4-5 litres of water per day. Today is day three of that plan, and I am wondering if/when I can expect to be able to go more than 20 minutes without having to pee, again???
I also have a buddy who has agreed to walk with me, Monday through Friday. We made a pact to keep each other motivated. We started today and walked 8 laps (approximately 2 miles) in 30 minutes. I know that we aren't winning any marathons at that rate, but it's a start;)
I have made the decision NOT to deprive myself of any specific foods. My main focus is going to be to cut down on portion sizes and to incorporate more fresh fruits (which is a challenge for me because I really don't like fruit) and veggies (notsomuch a challenge...I heart veggies:) into my diet. Basically, this is how I see it. Skinny people eat cheese and chocolate and pasta. Their bodies just metabolize these things differently for them than they do for me. It is basically unrealistic to assume that I am going to be able to successfully cut out all of my favorite foods just to shed pounds. My main objective is to change the way my body metabolizes the foods that I do eat. Like I said in my previous post, I don't eat a lot of foods that are bad for me. I just need to kick my fat butt into gear.
Enough of my rambling. If anyone would like to share their own experiences, or is on the same journey, right now...come and walk with me:)