summer vacation?
Well, last Thursday marked the end of the school year for My Minions. In September, I will put all four of my kids on the bus...and then my life will begin. I am not sure exactly how I feel about that.
Elijah has been my constant companion for the past five years. Of my four kiddos, he and I just "click". Maybe it is because he is the most like That Guy I Married. Or maybe it is simply because he is the most easy going and laid back kid I have ever given birth to. Who knows? But what I do know is that I am really going to miss him when he starts school.
I have spent the past twelve years staying at home and raising my kids. I have done some volunteer work during that time, but for the most part, I have been fully devoted to just caring for them. I haven't felt compelled to finish my college education or to go out and find a job. Now??? I am facing the prospect of being a stay at home mom with no kiddos at home.
I am sure that I will really like it, at first. The freedom to come and go as I please. To go to the gym or the pool or to buy groceries without little hands grabbing for the junk food that I am so staunchly trying to avoid...but I get bored really easily. I just hope that I can figure out what I want to do with myself before I find myself in a funk.
As a side note...LOOK, MA! NO HANDS!!! I have been off my happy pills for almost a month, now. Turns out that simply eating right and forcing myself out the door and to the track every day is all I needed to do in order to feel good. Who knew??? Also, I dropped 7 pounds in the past week, for a grand total of 18 pounds lost from my all time highest weight. I am not physically seeing a difference yet, but I am certainly feeling it. And this morning when I bent down to tie my shoes...I noticed that I could breathe! (my fellow fatties will totally get this...everyone else just takes breathing while bent over for granted)
hmmm...anything else? Not really. I actually feel like the Internet and I are growing apart. Like maybe I have spent too much time fostering my online relations and in turn have neglected the real life people who have always been here for me. I have very few friends in real life...so I have always cherished the friends I have made online. I guess that I am finally feeling like I need something more than some words typed on a screen with their virtual (((hugs))) and LOL's.
Wow...this post is all over the place. See, Internet??? I am bored with you.
Oh no...I hope I don't fall into the internet category! YEAH you on the WL! LOL and ((((hugs)))
Posted by: Lisa | June 17, 2008 at 02:21 PM
Shame on you for thinking so, Lisanne! I consider you way beyond an internet friend...and I have met you, IRL;) heh
Posted by: justdawn | June 17, 2008 at 02:35 PM
Congrats on the weight loss! That is an awesome accomplishment!!! I can totally relate to the running out of breath thing...been there, am kinda there again! As the pounds drop, you'll feel lighter and lighter and I am sure that will help keep you motivated! Keep up the great work! I am in your corner, cheering you on even though I was never a cheerleader! :) Hee hee! Hugs!
Posted by: Jess | June 18, 2008 at 02:01 AM
Way to go Sweets!!!!! An awesome accomplishment, indeed!!!! Have you tried that morning thingie I'd told you about? Is a funny boost, but all helps!!! Keep up the awesome job Dawn!!! The changes are happening, and because you're doing them right, this won't just be a fleeting thing....Congrats!!!! And don't ponder too much on the events that will occur later on....You'll deal with and handle it well......After the few breakdowns first!!! ha ha.....(or was it just me?) Miss ya! Oh, and MUCH hugs n luv!!!
Posted by: Solvi | June 18, 2008 at 11:19 PM
Woo-Hoo! Go you! : ) Congrats on totally rocking lately! Crazy thought to have all the kiddos gone all day.....I'm sure you'll find something (or many different somethings) calling your name!
Posted by: Catey | June 22, 2008 at 11:53 PM
WTG on the weight loss, I have been so busy but today is pretty mellow I wanted to pop in :) And when I couldnt breath when I was tying my shoes is when I realized something HAD to be done! OHHHHHH Please dont leave me cuz Im one of those internet friends!!! :O
Posted by: bugga ;) | July 14, 2008 at 10:50 PM