the missing piece

I look at my life as though it is a puzzle. As the years go by, the pieces become more tattered and worn. Their edges peeled back and swollen from age and abuse. Many no longer fit together due to the wear.The corners of the box held together with strips of yellowed scotch tape.

When you have bounced around as much as I have, pieces are bound to get lost. Also? I am a destructive force. I have never ended a relationship nicely. When I part ways with someone, it is usually with a resounding Fuck Off! I can't count how many times I have ripped my Life Puzzle apart, letting the pieces fall where they may. I generally scoop up the pieces, putting them back in their box until a time when I am able to regain my focus and reassemble it.

Inevitably, there are gaping holes where there was once love, friendship, loyalty or trust. Much of the picture is still clear and intact but some of the images are distorted or idiscernible.

It always amazes me when I stumble across one of my puzzle pieces, lost in one of the dark corners of my mind. When real events conspire with my psyche and old wrongs are righted. Old friendships rekindled. A missing piece is replaced.

In recent months, I have found several of my missing pieces. Integral pieces. Pieces that contain memories of people who have meant more to me than they probably ever knew.

I have accepted that some of my missing pieces will likely remain missing, but that is OK. I will just have to appreciate the ones that are eventually found and put back in their places.

Comments

[Lisa]

BEAUTIFUL post! Very well written and sweet! Love you.

PS- Love the chickies!

[Jill]

Wow! That is very profound. Glad that you've found some of the missing pieces and that you're OK with some of them missing. For the record - EVERYONE has missing pieces - it definitely doesn't make you abnormal or anything of the sort. Oh . . . and I'm sure you know that I've ended a few relationships with a resounding fuck you as well (and I'm not going to lie - sometimes it feels GOOD to end a relationship with such a direct comment).

[Angela Poe]

I hear you sister... I hear you. *nod nod*

[~LL~]

that was a great post....well written, indeed! Glad I'm a piece of your puzzle :)